So We Were An Accident?

You'll always be my favorite one.

You hit the road and left me an ocean
I can't swim in the silence of your skin-skin please let me in
Side the times we never had right
Inside two years alone with you

You said we were an accident
With accidents you’ll never know what could have been
So we were an accident
You’ll always be my favorite one

We could have been (We could have been again)
Instead of accidental running always running (why can’t you believe)
We could have been (We could have been again)

Long winded promises of future company
Up close the sound remains the same
Without the reign of terror over every momentary change
We are exactly as before

You hit the road and left me an ocean
I can't swim in the silence of your skin-skin please let me in
Side the time I had to forget you
Inside no chance of us at all


♥Motion City Soundtrack♥
An amazing band if I do say so myself.

Rawr. Rawr. RAWR.


|MedicLovelyJessie| is yet another tragedy.

Secret Valentine.....

Secret Valentine:
We'll write a song
that turns out the lights
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

lay down be still
don't worry talk they will
i'll be loving you until
morning's first light
breaks tomorrow
i'll take care of you tonight

The Romeo and Juliet.
Can ANYONE'S love be as strong or as flawless as theirs?
Their love was unconditional.
It was untouchable.
It was unobtainable by mankind.
But they managed to have it.
I challenged myself to find this kind of love.
And I've stopped my searching.
I found it.


♥♥♥♥♥

The Wonderful World Of....

Psychology.

Every year, my high school's psychology class has the BABY BOOK project.

Oh joy. >.<

We are supposed to find information on the day we were born and such, so I found this website that gave me everything I needed.

Check it:

http://www.dmarie.com/timecap

Wanna see mine?

Tuesday, May 26, 1992

Top News Headlines This Week:
May 26 - Carlos Martinez hits a ball off Jose Canseco's head for a HR May 26 - Weird Al Yankovic begins his Off The Deep End tour

Top Songs for 1992
Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton
Baby Got Back by Sir Mix-a-Lot
Baby-Baby-Baby by TLC
Under the Bridge by Red Hot Chili Peppers
Jump by Kris Kross
All 4 Love by Color Me Badd
End of the Road by Boyz II Men
Save the Best for Last by Vanessa Williams
My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It) by En Vogue
Just Another Day by Jon Secada

1992 Prices
Bread:
$0.75/loaf
Milk:
$2.14/gal
Eggs:
$1.22/doz
Car:
$18,141
Gas:
$1.19/gal
House:
$144,100
Stamp:
$0.29/ea
Avg Income:
$44,221/yr
Min Wage:
$4.25/hr
DOW Avg:
3,301

US President
George Bush

US Vice President
J. Danforth Quayle

Academy Award Winners
Best Picture:
Unforgiven
Directed By Clint Eastwood

Best Actor:
Al Pacino
in Scent Of A Woman

Best Actress:
Emma Thompson
in Howards End

People born on May 26
1948 - Stevie Nicks, Phoenix Az, rocker (Fleetwood Mac-Bella Donna)
1867 - Mary, queen of Great Britain/North Ireland
1907 - John Wayne, Winterset IA, actor (Green Berets, True Grit)
1910 - Laurance S Rockefeller, NYC, CEO (Chase Manhattan Bank)
1944 - Verden "Phally" Allen keyboardist (Mott the Hoople)
1949 - Hank Williams Jr Shreveport LA, country singer (All My Rowdy Friends Are Comin' Over Tonight, There's A Tear In My Beer)
1964 - Lenny Kravitz singer/guitar (911 is a Joke, Are You Gonna Go My Way?)
1966 - Helena Bonham-Carter

On TV in 1992
Beverly Hills 90210
The Wonder Years
Seinfeld
The Cosby Show
Roseanne
Home Improvement
The Simpsons
Cheers
Baywatch
Fresh Prince of Bel Air

Top Books in 1992
Shiloh by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor

It's been a while....

Good afternoon from my Aunt Jo's classroom at my high school...

Oh the joy of GRADUATION EXAMS.....

It's uneventful and boring, and I'm about to go insane.

After 4th block, I will be happily in the arms of my boyfriend.

<3

*giggles and blushes*

This guy is amazing. He's sincere, respectful, and honest.

He has a job, is a freshman in college and has goals.

What more could I ask for?

The few weeks before I met him, I felt horrible, and I was in a depression. But something about him took a lot of that pain away. I didn't feel like anything could bring me down, and nothing has.

My question is:

Has anyone ever been asked out on Halo? XDDDD

It was sweet. He got on my friend's 360 and went online with one of his friends. Spelt out in these exploding boxes were the words: Jess will you go out with me?

*blushes again*

I'm really happy.

But I must make this short because they have hooked up a Wii in the classroom.

<3

Peace and Love

The Key

This was edited and revised. :D





The sound of the doorbell woke her from her daydream and washed away the curiosity of what the future would hold. The rain was pouring from the sky, making the musical harmonies of rain hitting the windowsill. This always lulled her into daydreams.
The twenty-five year old sat up from her lounging position on the couch and glided toward the door. She peeked through the eyepiece of her two bedroom apartment and her heart skipped a beat. It was him. The boy she had fallen in love with; he just didn't know this yet. His beautiful green eyes stood out as they sparkled against his pale skin. His dark, almost black hair fell into place, right in front of his eyes. He was skinny, yes, but he could take anyone in a fight. He was the perfect guy, but the best part to this real life fantasy? He was all hers.
She opened the door and he leaned forward and kissed her lightly.
"Good morning, lovely," he said, "I've got something for you."
"Oh, really? James, you shouldn't have gotten me anything. You know just being with you is enough."
"You know better than that. You're special enough to receive it. Now, follow me." He said pulling her in and kissing her neck.
He led her through the walkway and into the sitting room to the couch. He pulled her onto his lap. She laughed and kissed him on the lips.
"So…what is this all about?" She asked looking into his eyes.
He straightened up a little and sat her on the couch. His eyes sparkled with an emotion so strong, it took her breath away. He took her hands in his and said the words they had both been waiting to hear.
"Aiden, you've known me since our freshman year in high school, and ever since then, you have captivated me with an awe that I still haven't been able to control. Every time I see you, I tremble, just knowing that any minute you could call this relationship off, but you excite me at the same time. We have been dating for nine months now, and I want to finally tell you this." He paused and looked up at her, and took out a long box from his jacket. He opened the box and she gasped. Inside was a silver key on a small silver chain.
"This is the key to my heart. It unlocks the chains that have bound me from every truly loving someone. It opens the door to my heart and the door to my love. All you have to do is turn the key. The locks never change. I love you, Aiden. You have me forever. Will you take the key and set me free from these chains?"
She was silently screaming, but screaming for joy. She had always had trouble with the three word cliché phrase, but he had always respected her decision. She had told him about it when they were in high school. She had wanted to tell him for a while now; she just couldn't put it into words.
"I…I…" she stuttered, "I love you too."
His eyes began to shine, and he pulled her towards him, kissing her passionately, yet carefully at the same time.
He slowly pulled away, and picked up the chain from the open box. He slipped it around her neck and clasped it shut. Her eyes began to water as she raised up and kissed him with full force passion.
Just by the way he kissed her back she knew she would always love him and his flaws; not that she really cared if he had flaws or not. And then he picked he up bridal style and headed across the room....


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6 Unspectacular Quirks

I laughed when I read this. One of my many amazing family bloggers tagged me in this thing and I just decided to reply to it. :D

My 6 Unspectacular Quirks:


1.
I know every single line in the movie The Pagemaster.

I watched it so much as a child that I remembered the lines after not seeing the movie FOR YEARS. It was one of the movies that really got me into reading as a kid, because the main setting was in a library. It went from an IRL [In Real Life, for all the text challenged people] movie to an animated one, with the voices of many wonderful actors such as Macaulay Culkin, Whoopi Goldburg and Christopher Lloyd. :D
And a summary from IMDB states:
This is the story of a young boy named Richard Tyler, who finds shelter from a storm inside a nearby library. Tyler slips and is knocked unconscious while exploring a rotunda in the library. Upon awakening he is led on a journey through conflicts and events that resemble fictional stories, keeping him from finding the exit from the library.

Go watch if you haven't.

2.
I have an ungodly amount of Sharpies.

Seriously. No Joke about it. If you could put me in a completely white room with a multipack of random multicolored sharpies and tell me to go wild with the walls, I would love you forever.
You wouldn't see me for weeks, I tell you.

3.
I have an uncanny way of being the neighborhood adviser, or what I like to call Medic.

See Older blog entry: They Don't Love You Like I Love You.

4.
I am OBSESSED with music.

The world would be a SAD AND DEPRESSING place without music. I basically like anything other than rap or country, with a few exceptions.
She Thinks My Tractor's Sexy or Tequila Makes Her Clothes Fall Off would NOT be on my playlist.
xD

5.
I am a BOOKWORM and a KNOWLEDGE WHORE.

I read A LOT. I have a 3.75 GPA and was at one time literally known as "Smart Girl in the Corner." My bookshelf in my room is OVERFLOWING. Ask my mom. She complains about it.

6.
I put my friends before myself.

I feel like God made my heart out of porcelain. I care too much. I don't know what it is, but I just can't seem to really care that much about what people say about me anymore, but if it has to do with a friend of mine, then its all out war. I would seriously die for my friends. I would take anything that life throws at me for them, because they are worth it. Especially for a certain 7 people.

Well, that is the list. I don't have people to tag, so w/e.

New Project.

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Oh How Things Change...

Wow.

Thats the first thing that comes to mind when I think about change. It really takes affect on me when I think about what all has changed in the past two years.

In family.

In friendships.

In love.

In death.

In loss.

In gain.

In school.

In the world.

In me. [internally and externally]

It blows my mind how many people take things for granted. I've become more aware of the things around me, and it makes me wonder why people want to destroy their lives when there are people who care. I mean, yeah, bad days/weeks/months/years suck. I have had all of those. and you know what? I've learned from it. It has changed me in many ways. Some of them in good ways, others in bad, but you know what? I deal with it.

Yeah, I will admit in this blog something that only two or three people know about me. I have had suicidal thoughts before. I have thought of suicide before. But you know what stopped that?
I thought about my mom. I thought about my friends. I thought about how it would affect the people around me. It scared me to death, because I did not want to think about that. I did not want to think about how many people it would hurt. I didn't want to think about what it would be like to be dead.

Its so odd. Thinking about it, I mean.

It takes a lot out of me to admit this online and knowing parts of my family read this, but you know? It could help someone. And I hope it does. I never wanted to admit this to anyone. Ever. Only two or three people knew about this, but think about this, if you truly know me then you know what I have had to go through for over 2 years. I'm not exactly ready to talk about all of this on here now, but one day I will.
Hopefully someone will read this and this help them more than ever.


I truly love my family and my friends. I couldn't put them through what I had to go through. Not that pain. That's why I decided to write this blog. Because you never know who is reading. You never know who you might help and not even know it.

I have a big heart. I can't stand people who act like they have these HUGE problems when they are so much smaller than they think. I choose to help people who are having these thoughts and threatening to commit suicide.

This is not bragging in any way, but my count is up to about 5 people who some have come to me more than once actually threatening suicide. Three actually tried to.

All five of these people are alive now. Not because of me. I do not wish to take credit of them still being alive, because it is not mine to take credit for. But they are alive because someone was willing to care. Someone was willing to talk them out of it. Someone was willing to tell them that there is more to life than what they think and they can get through this.

That person just happened to be me.

Crazy Antics for My Birthday....

Well, for my sixteenth birthday, my friend and I decided to go get our noses pierced the next day. And let me tell you, it hurt like a mofo. It's STILL sore, but I'm getting used to it. =] Other than that, I spent my birthday having a cookout with a couple of friends.

Here's proof other than the picture:
[and yes I look HORRIBLE in this video.]

Check out this video: Nose Pierced with Lucia